i have been thinking that i had went through a lot these days. and i believe that everyone experience the same. i got sick for many times in this second semester. i gain so much knowledge about new things. i met new people and we ended up being friends now . i kept changing my perception on a particular things that i thought i would not go against my stance . i have learned lessons upon some good things and of course some bad things that i did . i enjoyed myself doing things i never do . i am happy . i did mistakes . still , i tried and tried to be positive . i am not that good to say i am good. yet , i am not that bad to say i am bad . we live to learn and we learn to live . phrases that i always bear in mind , i live with it . i cannot write the whole thing because there are so many and too much of incidence that happened . if i have been given a power, i wanted to have a flashback of all the memories so that i will never forget each of every thing that occupied my life . but memories are meant to be memories . so , chill out . there is still FUTURE to be taken care of . before the last breath in this world , dreams will turn out reality one fine day . i will make it sure .

There are times we did not realize what we were doing .There are times we made the wrong decisions. There are times we were the stupidest jerk of human being on earth. Every and each of every one of us have been made mistakes in life and i live with that. In fact, i regret for all of my mistakes. But how should i guarantee that i am not doing it again when i face difficulties to promise to myself that i would not repeat and stop ? People around me, they are diamonds. They shines , pretty , and valuable. I do not want the diamonds to be in pieces as i do not want them to feel pain and be hurt with any of my action. I do love them with all of my heart and if only i have been given a chance or oppurtunity of what am i going to do for the last day of my life? i ask for apologizes from each of them and says, I LOVE YOU.

a whole lot bunches of sorry to everyone.
i mean it.

semester two.

totally gonna miss u,ibu.ayah.kakak.amey.baby.adek. i wish i could give u a hand at the store . but , i couldnt . it is sad leaving you ibu and ayah just like this . well , im away for good thing ryte . that is one . hurm , i wanted to call u but u r having good times out there with ur friends at this moment . so it is better to leave u like that n not to interrupt i guess . because it is his last chance before he is away to his campus.but.. here i am still waitin for ur msg . staring at the phone like there is light that will appear soon at the screen and stated there"1 message received" . but nothing is going to happen i know . the screen is still dark and now is already 2.18 am . em let him be . gosh . faez already asleep . miss him . cant even had a chance to byebye him before the semester break ends.





it is bad thing to be alone when u need someone to hold..
pen-off.

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